Saturday, January 30, 2010

sorry about that

previous post, probably makes most people say "stop feeling sorry for yourself"
true enough,
mostly it is the loss of a person who you held dear to your heart
that makes you feel like crap
you second guess yourself all the time

nothing like talking on a blog to no one in partciular

to make you feel like you are the lowliest piece of shit ever to walk the planet

sobering thoughts

I just read in my previous posts of my regrets and the one that I would regret the most was falling asleep when I shouldn't. Such shocking words when my 11 year old son's best friend, just lost his mom last week. She was only 40 years old and didn't wake up.

What the fuck is with that man!

to dance with you again

I was thinking tonight
of you and your friendship
how I have missed
our clumsy dance together
I read tonight
you are dancing again
I hope in the spring
there will be a chance
for us to dance
once again
I was thinking
in your barn would be fun
:)

Thursday, January 21, 2010

I Wonder

who will ever read my words

time

You try to catch it
grasp it in your fingers
it slides through like water
leaving you breathless
touching you briefly
making you think you actually grabbed it
that is the illusion of it
sometimes the only proof of it
is in the lines on your face
wrinkles that only seconds it seems
before
weren't there
I wonder
what will I regret
when it is the last second for me
I suppose
falling asleep when I shouldn't have

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

those crazy kids

My son tells me I don't really do much around the house.
"It doesn't take a rocket scientist to pick up the groceries. "
"Why don't you just go out and get a better job! "
"Commuting to the city and a 12 hour day would be so easy to do. "
"The kids practically take care of themselves now. "
Sheeesh Mom!

Isn't it amazing how simple life is to a teenager.
Mostly I just laze around the house all day. Right?

Ha!
Hopefully one day he will appreciate just what I do, or maybe he never will.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Onward to 2010

Here it is a new year. So far, so good. Hopefully there will be no judgements in this year. So hard to avoid though.